Walked to a point where the roads split, leading down different directions forever and it is obvious where I will end up for each path. What do I choose now? One will bring eternal pain, the other will kill myself to walk the first few months but I will gradually turn stronger. 

Of course I know what I should choose, but I ain't anticipating the pin right up ahead..

Life, what a big joke.

Yet I blame no one, because choices are your own. Always.

I should not take people's words seriously, because they change with the seasons or even weather in some cases. How? I was wrong, so completely wrong to think whatever beautiful could perhaps remain if I have my best shot..