You said '你真的很喜欢黏我hor!'

How you loved, that passionate fire burning in your eyes, your warm body melding with me, bringing my mind out of this world.

How you trembled, when you came to my place at night, holding on to a guitar and serenading me, asking if I wanted to be your only one, forever.

How you smiled, when I said yes...

How you cared, when I was sick and you hugged me to sleep, not caring if I was having a fever, I didn't want to fall asleep, I wanted to remember that moment forever.

How you talked, you talked about so many wonderful ,beautiful things, about a future together, I can still imagine it all in my head now.

How you sang, oh your voice, the song you wrote for me, the words that you never said out loud, I hear them. I hear them through your gentle voice. Didn't I let you know?

How you kissed, I wanted to reach inside you, to touch your soul the way you touched mine.

How you condemned the others' relationships, I remember, and then after your rant, you told me 'you know what's real love? It's you and me.' I fell for you harder during that moment, did you know that? You sounded so convinced in us.In what you thought was us..

How you said good morning, and 'I love you' and 'I miss you' and 'thank you baby' and especially how you called me babe one day when I was in the kitchen and I was incredulously laughing at you because i was so surprised. Pleasantly so.

And how we laughed together at your antics, walking in the carpark, you singing off-key on purpose and i'm doubled over in hysterical laughter, and all the way home you kept it up. Up the lift, opening the front door and into your room, and then the mood changed in an instant and we could both feel the electricity.

Oh, there are a million more memories you left with me here. It would take a hundred more days to list them all out. Thank you, our relationship was the best and the worst i had, worst because with all the many highs, came the many lows too.
 I learnt so many lessons, and I am wiser now.
thank you dear boy. I saw love with us, thank you.

You are not a bad person, don't ever forget that. or else i would never love you the way i did. everyone makes mistakes. it's how you grow, it's how life forces you to learn from mistakes.

My mistake was falling in too deep. it was never healthy, and i have repercussions now. probably permanent. but it's fine, i won't die.

You will get better quickly, way faster than me for sure. That's good, i'm glad.