We didn’t get the chance to know each other well enough yet, and then you’re gone.. 

I didn’t even have the time to see you start turning away,  then you’ve already walked out of sight.

But I did feel your arms around me holding me so tight, fixing me back together, 

I did believe it was a forever, finally.

When you looked at me, laying beside me, told me "this is happiness" , I was healed.

When you told me ‘you’re mine’, I couldn’t imagine anything else.

When I was at my lowest, there you were. Shining bright and guiding my way. 

You asked me; Don’t you know how important you are to me?

I wish I could ask you right now. I wish I could have seen it coming. But I know, you have changed your mind, and you might be forever gone, just like that. 

We did make one short overseas trip together, thank you. I guess that will only be it then. I’m so silly. I really am.

I’m sorry you thought you weren’t the glue that could hold me together, to me, you were. And I wanted to be the same. You became all I had and all that made my heart tick, I believed so fiercely. I wanted to be yours too. I’m sorry it didn’t happen. 

When you asked me to be yours, you told me you were ready for all my flaws and insecurities, we could work through them tgt.

 You told me you had yours too, and I said of course, I understand, we’re both human. I felt so safe then. So warmed and understood. I do love you, nothing else matters.

I’m sorry for my callousness and blunders, because they pushed you even further away.

I love you. I guess I’ll always do.

I miss you, more intensely than I thought possible.

You came into my life like a gust of wind, I didn’t even see you coming, then there you were enveloping me, and you left as quickly as well. I will be okay, I can hold myself up, I need to. I need to learn how to do so properly this time.

I won’t forget your hugs, your arm always around my waist or holding my hand, our fingers interlocking. And your gaze, your thousand kisses, you told me you wanted to protect me, you wanted to be the one for me so much, how strongly you believed too then. Thank you.

I was truly happy, and that should be enough for now I guess.