Thank you, for putting effort in making things as easy as possible for me. I know you put a lot of thought into that. Thank you for being so gentle with me, it made the fall less painful. And I harboured no resentment or pain afterwards, it’s only love now.

It’s weird, but I think I did mature in ways I wouldn’t have thought possible. My relationship with you right till the end, was proof of that. Yes, I still have a ways to go. But thank you for being here when you could, you’re right. Everything happens for a reason.

I understand. I really do.

 I finally do believe it now, when you said it wasn’t my fault. I finally stopped thinking why and what I could’ve done better. On what I could have changed to change things.

If you feel it’s somewhat your fault, I forgive you. If you don’t think it is, I agree with you. Because I never blamed you anyways, I know very well how difficult it was for you, to say goodbye again. I felt your pain too. I felt your heart bleeding too.

 I understand it’s really so many uncontrollable factors, and life is just sometimes this way.

I understand because I learnt. I’ll be better, and stronger. You too, you’ll be so much more amazing once you get everything sorted. You already are a big treasure, don’t doubt that.

So this is what love really is. It’s beautiful. It doesn’t hurt at all. It’s keeping me going.

What hurt was the rejection, disappointment, sadness. But not love, love saved me. I’m feeling it fully now.  How is it you can make my heart fully whole again even while you take away a piece of me? I have so much to give, and I’m so glad I gave you something.

I’m sad I can’t be with you throughout, because I wanted to support you, be by your side through everything. But i understand why that is not possible now.

I now thank you, for everything we’ve been through, even for that little short while, for the thoughts and love you gave me, I thank you. you tried your hardest and everything you did and thought/planned for me, even if I didn’t realize it before, I can see it all clearly now. You’re amazing.

I thank you, and I will love and support you no matter what you choose to do.

Keep fighting, love. Jia you.