Callouses: " The skin tries to protect itself from friction or pressure by thickening and hardening. In healthy people, corns and calluses eventually go away on their own once you remove the cause, such as by wearing properly fitted shoes or gloves. "


This feeling of heartbreak. I faintly remember when it hurt so much worse, raw and razor-sharp.
I can barely recall now, how I didn't breathe for months.

Now, it is just a dull, watered down version of it, and sadly, I feel it isn't fair to you.

I will choose the hard way, I always do.
I welcome myself to face the pain head-on, I let it push me under. Because, simply, I know I can swim through it.

I was so close to drowning once. just that once.

I guess, this means I am stronger now than before.
This means that, just like my fingers pressing and cutting themselves on the metal guitar strings, hardening its skin, I am too building the callouses of my heart.

I am trying to force myself to learn to have courage and be brave.
Because try as I might, I always forget. Just like callouses that go away once the cause is removed.

 Somehow, I am always looking for a home where I can be vulnerable and pure. To let go of being who I need to be.

Yet, it is high time I learn that the world, does not owe me anything.
It has given me so much, I look all around me, I see beauty, and pain but also growth.

It is time I grow up. I'll be better, stronger, wiser. As I walk into the uncertain horizons, and leave the past right where it is.